Just Me

I am not expecting anyone to read this so in a way I am talking to myself. My name is Christina Craddock. Wow, I thought writing this would be easy, but my brain just came to a hault. Time to be honest, I can only use my name to describe myself because somehow I have lost a sense of who I truly am in recent months. Every morning as I do my hair and make-up I find myself staring in the mirror and wondering, "Where did I go..." I know it seems a bit cliche to say that this is an experiment to "find myself." Normally I try to avoid what society calls cliche, but I have recently come to this conclusion; people cannot avoid being cliche because loose the accesories and we are all the same. I know so many people who would take extreme measures to disagree with me as I would have one ago. My conclusion comes from my recent observings. Lately I have gone out of my way to locate myself in places where I am engulfed in a group of people, and I just watch and listen. If you talk to anyone who knows me, I am not one to usually separate myself, but this discovery is so fasinating to me that I can't help, but step aside. Women worry nonstop, and they worry about everything. I love and hate my gender for this very reason. As I have lingered in my University Starbucks sipping my black coffee I hear women all around me discovering the problems of the world, and why it has somehow become their problem. Ladies, we are superhereos, but we aren't invinceable. Relax, maybe he is freaking out because you are his first serious relationship, but most likely not. Girls we don't understand men as well as we think we do so stop acting so cocky. We do get that if men have free food and a remote then they are content as anything, but thats when our knowledge stops. Oh, and we do know that they don't inderstand us at all. Ladies, we don't even understand ourselves so go give the dudes a break. That is all I have to talk about this morning. Maybe later I will have more juicy gossip to tell. Thanks for listening to my rambles, and if there are grammar issues then sorry, but i don't really care that much.

~Christina